Cocktails and Dreams

Guilty Feeling of the Year

I dont think I'll easily be able to get over the fact that all I did for last years earthquake was to collect money. I wasnt able to go to the PAF Museum. I didnt go to Azad Kashmir. Infact, all i really did do was initiate a couple of donation movements. I feel horrible about it. While even the girls that I know were able to actively participate in all this, I stayed back and encouraged others to give in money and everything. There was a reason why I couldnt go to all these places, but perhaps theres nothing that can make me feel better about it all. Selfishly speaking, I feel as if I wasted a perfect opportunity to get inner peace and satisfaction of having helped so many people at the same time. If you see a poor old man carrying a heavy bag of supplies to his hut, would you give him a Rs. 100 note or take the bag from him and carry it for him? I believe, the latter is better. That's what I would do, or atleast want to do. The fact that I couldnt do such a thing for over a million people when I had the chance to is something that will always sting me like a needle bent into my flesh. For some reason, I had to share this with the world. There is no measure to the amount of regret I feel.

posted by h@mMy! @ 6:44 PM