Monday, December 12, 2005

A part from an interesting article i read the other day on the internet:


"Why did you start all this?"
"To get away from it all."
"To get away from what?"
"The pain."
"What caused the pain?"
"Well it was years in the making. I had a long and serious relationship with a friend, which was constantly bruised and battered by a very stinging reaction to it by one of my parents. The relationship with that parent was constantly bruised and battered by trying to keep up with my other relationship. I felt like being pulled from both sides. In the end, I ripped from the middle, and both my friend and parent were lost to me. I also hid a very dark secret, which stabbed me every time I lived it. The most painful feeling was that of being an incompetent son. Though I tried so hard, I could never manage to be the son my parents wanted me to be in many ways. In the end, they ended up wishing I would leave home as quickly as possible. Endless fights with my parents, triggered by my foul mouth and bad temper, were often the source of the greatest pain. I couldnt keep anyone happy; not even myself."
"What things did you try?"
"I cut myself and burnt myself so that the temporary pain caused by that would make me forget my other sources of sadness. I tried glue sniffing, smoking, weed, alcohol and cocaine. I thought of running away, but didnt do that anyway."
"Do you wish for death?"
"No."
"What motive do you find to stay alive then?"
"That I know, deep inside my heart, that I AM a good person, and that I can be better. The will to be better, and the hope that tomorrow will be a better day, keeps me going."

posted by h@mMy! @ 6:49 PM

2 Comments:

At 9:07 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

awwwwwwwwwwww.............

wicked!!

 
At 1:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

indeed a thought provoking article !!!

 

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